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Some pics


 

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Summer pics #2
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Found the rest of them on my camera :D

 

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Just found some pics of me & my dog,Sinatra, from last summer :D

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New Tattoo !
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I'm gonna get a new tattoo! 
It's gonna be a memorial tattoo for my grandmother, she died six years ago and because we're very much alike I decided to get a tattoo.

It's gonna be in the collarbone area, her initials in a stylish font and then connecting it all to the tattoo on my arm and shoulder. (with flowers). It's gonna be all black.

I'll never forget you...
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Title: A boy like no other
Author: [info]forevermeansus
Band: Aiden
Pairing: WiL/Jake
Rating: PG
Summary: Jake works at a supermarket when he meets a mysterious boy.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything. this is fiction
Warnings: AU - vampires -

 

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God, how much I hate this day...
Just went to my schools' website and saw the list of all graduated people.
Even people that barely showed up at school for the past five years, were on that list. It's impossible they passed in a legal way.
Of course I'm not on the list, and that's all because of my 'lovely' father that made me quit school months ago, just when I got in my final year.
Maybe I quit anyway, but when someone's abusing you and your mother then you have no choice right?
Being at school everyday, wondering if maybe when you get home your father murdered your mother.
For me there was just one option : Staying home as much as I could.
I hate it when people tell me I should've never quit, cause otherwise I would have had my diploma right now. They don't know in what kind of situation I was, so they shouldn't give their opinion about it.
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I can't sleep =(
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I can't sleep...
Since I lost my job at the shoesstore last week I'm not tired at the end of the day.  I help my mum cleaning the house everyday but it's not the same. I guess I just miss my job, I really loved working there.
It's just disappointing if you trust your boss and then he just calls you at home and tells you he doesn't care you quit.
=( I'm all sad right now, GRrrr
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kratom
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Me & my brother went to a smartshop in Utrecht last Friday to get some 'Kratom'. I read  on the internet that it was fantastic stuff, making you feel high in 5 minutes, It should last for hours and it makes you feel very happy. also it's not addictive nor bad for your body.
I had read that kratom-powder is stronger than the liquid but the shopmanager told me that isn't true, so we bought the little bottle.
Which is the same as 20 grams of the powder., enough for the two of us to have a lovely weekend. 
We were very excited about it and tried it on my brothers' room. It was gross! and we almost threw up. Five minutes later I started to feel something, it was like our room's twice as big, but that was it... we weren't feeling happy and I even felt depressed after a while.  It made my brother very tired so he fell asleep an hour after we took it .  I couldn't sleep at all and just watched him. He seemed to sleep the same as he normally does, snoring and all.. Fucker
The bigger-room-feeling last for three hours, then I fell asleep too. It was definitely not a nice experience. But hey, gotta try everything right?
Next time I'll probably stick to my super-Haze, though


~Jessica~

hurt - chapter 3
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Title: Hurt - chapter 3
Rating/Warnings: R
Pairing: Noel / Liam
Summary: Noel loves a girl, but she already has a boyfriend.. this will get him into trouble

Robert calls noel and as soon as he gets him on the phone he grabs Liams' hair and pulls him up.

"Hello Noel... it's Robert. We've got your pretty little brother"

- "What?! you're talking bullshit. Liam's at home with mum, he's save."

"Your mummy wasn't home yet when we took him with us. But if you don't believe me, here's Liam on the phone..."
 

Robert pulls the ducktape of Liams' mouth, causing him to scream out loud. and then gives the phone to him.

"Liam?? is that you??!!!"

Liam's so greatfull to hear his brothers' voice that he starts to cry again. "Noel.. please help me, they've hurt me so much"

- "Where are you? I'll come right now! don't worry everything's gonna be fine"

Robert grabs the phone and gives Noel the adress of the place they're gonna meet.




Liam really wants to hurt Robert, but he's too weak. Robert

lays his thumb on edward's lower lip and pushes it a bit, just to irritate him. Liam growls and looks angry at him.

Noel arrives 15 minutes after the phone call. He sees Liam on his knees, with bruises on his face, and blames himself for everything that happened to him.

He wants to kill Robert, but getting Liam home so he'll be safe, is way more important to him right now.

Robert laughs evil. "The next time you'll think twice before you lay your hands on someone's girlfriend!"

Noel stares angry at him but doesn't say anything. He pulls Liam up and asks him if he's alright. Liam is in tears and unable to reply.

Noel grabs Liams' hand and walks him home. Robert's still yelling something but Noel doesn't care, the only thing he cares about is Liam.


 

When they arrive at home their mother's still not home. Noel just got a message on his phone at that moment. it's their mother saying she'll be late that night.

Noel brings Liam, who still hadn't say anything, to their room and lays him on the bed.

He wraps his arms around Liam and caresses his back. "Liam, don't cry you're safe with me"

- "Noel .. I love you. I mean.. I'm really in love with you"

Noel can't believe what Liam just said. He always had special feelings for Liam, but he never knew Liam felt the same about him.

"Noel, are you mad at me for telling you that?"

- "Of course I'm not mad Liam.. it's just that I've always felt the same about you, but never had the guts to tell you"



 

Noel gently kisses the bruises on his face and Liam pushes his mouth on Noels'.

This has always been Noels' dream.. to be kissed by Liams' perfect soft lips.

Noel looks at his little brother.. he touches his beautiful hair.

Liam's kissing Noels' neck and asks with a soft voice :"Will you never let someone hurt me again?"

Noel kisses Liam :"I'll never let someone hurt you again, I promise"....



hurt - chapter 2
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Title: Hurt - chapter 2
Rating/Warnings: R
Pairing: Noel / Liam
Summary: Noel loves a girl, but she already has a boyfriend.. this will get him into trouble

Liam doesn't know the guys and is surprised they know his name.

"..hello? who are you? and how did you know my name?"
 

The guy smiles :"I'm Thomas, a friend of your brother Noel. He asked me to take you to my house, cause he won't get home today."
 

- "That's not true! Noel would never leave me with someone else! he always comes home. And there's no need to take me with you if it is true, cause my mum will get home tonight."
 

"Listen Liam, Noel told me you're mother's going to be late tonight, she'll be home at 11 pm, and he's going out with Samantha. Please trust us, you'll be safe with us"
 

"ok.." Liam steps outside and walks along with them.
 

"How far do you live?" He asks with a trembling voice.
 

"Not far away, but hey don't be scared and stop shaking"
 

Liam doesn't answer and keeps shaking the whole time.
 

After half an hour walking his feet start to hurt. He's wearing his old shoes.

"Are we almost there?"

"Yes this is exactly the place we wanted to take you to"
 

"What do you mean? Where's your house?" Liam sees no houses, only a couple of

factories.

"We're not going to my house, dear" Robert nods to his friends and one of them grabs Liam's wrists while the others put ducktape on his mouth and around his wrists.
 

They throw him on the ground. Robert laughs as Liam's rolling on the ground, trying to get away.

Robert kicks him against his knees. "You're not going anywhere little boy"
 

Robert he squats next to him and grabs Liam's head. "You're a very beautiful boy, nothing like your brother" He caresses his cheek.

Liam knows this isn't true and he gets angry but can't find a way to express himself and suddenly he starts crying because of that.
 

"Awww poor boy, don't cry" he laughs and then kicks him again.
 

"Let's call your brother now.....I want to know how he'll react when we tell him we've got his beloved little brother"


hurt chapter 1
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Title: Hurt - chapter 1
Rating/Warnings: R
Pairing: Noel / Liam
Summary: Noel loves a girl, but she already has a boyfriend.. this will get him into trouble

Hurt..

Noel's walking home from school. .. he loved that girl for like four years, if just that one other guy didn't exist, he would be with her now...and be happy. Why did he have to fight with that guy.. k he was angry and he liked her so much, but he should have walked away when her boyfriend hit him.

His nose is bleeding.. he knew the guy's five friends would help him, but he didn't care.

Noel still hears the last words the guy said before he walked away : "We'll hurt your loved ones"

Noel didn't take this serious, "What could they possibly do? they're only teenagers like me, only a couple of years older"

He tries to think about something else and suddenly realises he needs new guitar strings, so he goes to the musicstore. He looks at his watch , 'Half past 4.. Liam must be home already, waiting for me to get home so I have to be quick' but damn, he's definitely not the only one who needs something from the musicstore, there are more than eight people inside asking questions about guitars, pianos and stuff.

Liam's staring at the clock 'wtf is taking him so long to get home?! I turn 13 next week so maybe he's buying something for my birthday..that would be a good reason to be late'

then the doorbell rings. Liam walks to the door and sees six guys through the glass, he opens the door and one of the guys, the fat one, says 'Hello little Liam........'


A libertines fanfiction - Carl/Pete
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No one likes switching schools, especially if you're in your final year..

Though Carl isn't worried about exams, and makes friends easily he's still nervous.

The moment he opens the heavy doors and he hears the familiar sound of students chatting. It sounds so hollow that it always reminds him of being in a hospital at night, when you don't see anyone and the only thing you hear is voices far away in another alley and muffled sounds from TV's in some of the rooms.

 

His new school is much like his old school, only it has 2400 students and his old one only 1600.

As he searches to find his locker he sees....him.....

Carl stopped walking at the moment he saw him and just stares.

The boy he stares at is tall and slim. his dark red t-shirt matches his pale skin and beautiful brown puppydog eyes. Carl slowly focusses his gaze at the boy's jeans and shoes.

"aww, AllStars and a darkblue slimfit jeans with a hole in the knee. Is it possible to look so adorable?" he asks himself. 'just forget that boy Carlos! Find your locker and the right classroom or you'll be in trouble in a few minutes.' he forces himself to walk away but before he put ten steps away from the boy, he hears yelling and turnes back to see the cute boy being grabbed by the top of his shirt, by a much bigger guy who looks almost ten years older than him.

Carl isn't the only one staring now, everyone's looking at them.

'I warned you that I'll find you everywhere!, even at your stupid school!, you pathetic little boy!' the older man yells at the boy.

"Just leave me alone! I haven't done anything wrong!" the boy says.

"you would pay,or you would get hurt. we made that very clear to you boy"

The boy tries to run away but the man grabs his wrist and continous :"So, if you haven't paid us in two days... maybe we'll give you some stitches in that pretty face of yours!"

After that the man walks away, leaving the boy scared.

Carl walks up to him and sees this as the best excuse to make contact with him.

 

"Are you alright?" he asks with a gentle voice.

It takes the boy 5 seconds to pretend he's alright and then he answers "yer I'm just fine, they're not gonna hurt me.. I'm Pete btw, and you must be Carlos..the new kid, right? "


Carl nods:"nice to meet you. My next lesson's English, what about yours?"


"Same for me, you can sit next to me if you like"


 

They go to the english classroom together and as Carl sits next to Pete, he wants to know everything about him, especially why this guy wants to hurt him and even looks him up at school, but they don't talk about it, the only thing they talk about is music. Carl's glad they have the same taste in music and they both play the guitar. When the lesson's over and Pete stands up to put his books into his bag, Carl quickly writes his cellphone number on a piece of paper and gives it to pete. "You can always call me..when you need someone to talk to...even if it's in the middle of the night.. "

the next chapter will be up soon!


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